Is It the Clumsy Me

I looked at my hand... & thought about it for a while then realized what felt amiss about it, my phone!

Omg, where was it, what. How could I have done something so stupid? Lost my phone!! For the second time around! My mind immediately started making the worst calculations possible. I bought that stupid phone for 30k, my 5th mobile phone which didn't see the light of the day. How tragic. I was switching to new phones like clothes.
Still loyal to the number that holds the maximum significance in my life(6). I moved on to thinking about what my new phone would be shamelessly! Because if there was one thing I didn't pay any heed to and still paid all of it was money. As my father says(aka all fathers of India relate),"Paise kya ped pe ugate hain?" Or the  one, rather sarcastic,"Hum Tata, Birla nahi haaiiiin." OR "Baap ko ATM samajh ke rakha hai."  But shame rarely knocked at my door. I was as shameless as they came and replied crassly about a phone being directly proportional to second hand izzat in society and at once proposing the second most expensive phone in the market to only bargain down to the third or fourth. Lol. Hence I own now a OnePlus which I very conveniently forgot in my cab ki seat.
Absent mindedly I ran my hand over my pockets and felt a bump.
And then it dawned on me when the bump felt rectangular in shape.
Besharam hu mai thodi.
Phone pocket mei tha.
Daily heart attack ka source. Mera priye phone.
xxx 

Tendencies of My Wretched Heart

It's the organ that starts pumping 10x times the normal amount of blood through my body the moment someone cute and attractive talks or even waves at me. You guessed it right, it's my silly heart.
Also, other organs that stop functioning around the same time, in such situations are my mouth, which forgets to speak, my stomach which turns upside down and my brain which can't comprehend, like really? Is this really happening? To me? And much, later on, the fantasies catch up. Now that's a bad patch because hallucinations bring nothing but dismay.
I have so much love to give I believe it to be all-encompassing to every being in this universe. Makes me ask myself what is love? And how do I love? Or how do I give love?
With so many humans and creatures and beings on my love list, I should at least know what to expect out of the love I give them in the least. But when the mind wants nothing but a smile on their faces and body desires nothing but their mere presence itself, I ask myself again, is this what love is?
Back then they used to keep their lives on the line for their beloved friends. 
Now the heads of those very friends are served on a platter if they're not wearing or appreciative of that latest Apple product in the market. Serves them right for not having an iPhone right?
Gareeb mkl mc bc.
xxx